Now...Step 1

So...I have spewed my negativity out to all of you that have taken time to read. And I appreciate it. I had to get my frustration out to be able to start making some changes. So first: Be positive!!!

Being negative isn't going to get me anywhere. I am going to be positive about all the things that are going good and changing those things that are not.

A lot of what I have had to say sounds very, well....whinny, and I hate that. I have never expected to be handed anything while in grad school. I have always been of the mindset that you get out of graduate school what you put into it. And I still believe that. The issue that I do still have is that the required classes I am having to take are not adding to the education that I have set out for myself within the structure of this program. I believe that a lot of this has to do with my mind set, and with the place that I am in in my life and with my thinking at the moment, I don't see that changing.

With my newly reinforced drive and demand for change in myself I know that I will be able to work through the rest of this class and make sure that I am not misinformed as I was going into this one.

As for my exam today: it is gonna be a toss up. I do not feel that I have a grasp on the information. I do not feel comfortable with the theory, methodology, or examples. I fell that I get something different out of our readings from what our professor "tells us" we should be getting out of the readings. I do not come from the same background and don't come to the same conclusions and think that I will be at a loss as a result. Doing my best and I will get through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!